Fusteration

So I tried to mosaic today and I had a block. It was like all the creativity just got sucked out of me. I know why. Someday I want to be able to clear my head. Someday I want to be happy again. When Ethan acts up about homework I want the strenth to handle it better then I have. I think I'm just at a loss as to what elce to do with him. I've decided to not fight him anymore and he can go to school and suffer the consequences.

Making changes

Sometimes I think you get to a point in your life when a drastic change is just what the doctor ordered...

I'm at that point in my life. I think I have tried enough and I should maybe eathier stop trying or take the final step and have a professional outside person asess the situation. I wish I wasn't so scared to do eathier one of them....

Mosaics

The back of the birdhouse

The front of the birdhouse. I found this bidhouse at the salvation army. My favorite place to find things to salvage. I decoupaged the front with scrapbook paper cut from my cricut using images I got free off the web. I used SCAL to make my cricut cut the images.

The top of my birdhouse.

This is the swan mosaic I made for my mom for Mother's day. I'm getting better!

One of my first projects making an image for a design with mosaics. it's just a plain wood box from the dollar store and the mosaic is ceramic plate shards and glass tiles. I originaly used a grey sanded grout from lowes. I didn't like the way it turned out so a friend suggested I color wash the grout with watered down acrylic paint and glitter. So I did that and it looks MUCH better! I've learned from this project to not space the tiles so far apart. Mosaics is about the shards and tiles ect... not the grout. The grout is just the backdrop.

The tree side

This is the butterfly side. Somehow one of the antennas got lost... Hey it was one of my first projects!

This is the flower side

This the bird side of the box

This is a clock I did with china shards and glass tiles. The grout is white.

My Mom

I love you Mom!

MY Mom

My mom is the sweetest woman I know. She realy is. I'm not just saying that cause she's my mom. She is always willing to put others first and herself on the backburner. She's a creative, loving, and giving woman. I hope my parsonality reflects her's.

I've been nicotine free for 3 years now!!

Benny getting better. The doc gave him a steroid to help open up the airways . He is calling it a viral. He sayes it might be croupe.
It worries me because Ty and Jake had asthma when they were younger but I have a feeling they outgrew it because Terry and I quit smoking in the house and then all together. Ever since we quit the boys have never had an attack. Makes me feel stupid for ever smoking in the first place. Sorry if any of my readers are smokers, I know it's a VERY VERY difficult habit to lick. I would rather give birth a million times again with no pain meds for 36 hours then to quit smoking. For me it was mind over matter. I had to keep telling myself things like ... " I will not let this control me. My family needs me to live longer. There will always be stress in my life, and I can NO WILL NOT use that as an excuss to not quit at this moment. I am worth more then filling my body with this shit! " Not to mention I just found out I was pregnant with Benny when I quit. I hope this helps anyone that is trying to quit.
I'm working on mosaics at the moment and will post some pics of my first projects later today.

Sick of being sick!

Benny's sick again. Cough running green snot watery eyes, and low grade fever. Was up all night listening to him cough. We ended up camping out on the couch so Terry could sleep since he had to work this morning. Tomorrow he is working  a double. Wish me luck to get through the night as I can't get into the docs till the am and I do NOT want to sit in the ER all night.